Locking Hearts

I just woke up. For some reason , I feel numb. My head, is empty. I secretly like it. I didn't dream anything last night , i think. Maybe i was too tired. Of just too drugged, i have a fever. I woke up to the sound of bags being thrown around by Mama. She was packing for tonight , and like any good wife would. For her husband. Realise i didn't call him my father , intriguing ha. Anyway , his going 4 hours before us. I'm not going to explain any further about it, just a waste of energy typing.

I have to be honest , in all of my trips or holidays. I'm not looking forward to go away again , not this soon. I don't know if it's cause my face is just peeling from Langkawi , or the guilt. I realize i haven't been a goof friend. I've always been away or busy with work and college. It's just not fair , I guess. I'm sorry friend's. I really don't care if they think otherwise. I still have a guilt in me, and I'm sorry.

CURRENT LOVE
Taylor Lautner *shocker*

Is it pathetic that i can tell "New Moon" by heart just by reading it in two days ? With my imagination , i don't think i really need to see the movie. But.... I won't let that stop me.

Ps; I miss you friends. A lot.

Anya Marina - Satellite Heart

I noticed the date , i noticed my posts have been decreasingly depressing. But there's a reason to it , a very good reason to start with.

1. Im a loser , with no life.
2. I was too busy.
3. I was uninspired.
4. I LOST MYSELF.

Yes admitingly I say , I was just lost.. Within my own thoughts.I don't have a clue on how any of you would understand how my petty mind works. I really don't.

But just think of it this way , my head works like a radio. At one point in our lives , we just couldn't live without it. Cause it was the only was we all could listen to music , but in time people came up with devices so that we can tune only our favourite songs, hence , the cd player. And then , came the MP3 our savior. Well I guess , i was so use to the radio that i just could tune to only kind of music all day long or just my favourites.In time , i still went back to my silly radio.. And honestly speaking , its not a very safe place to go. Its an old radio , i might just get shot with the old wires.

So there , there it is. I have always been a good liar to myself but a bad liar to everyone around me. I could fool myself all the time , it wasn't hard. But around people, well lets just say your spot me like an olive amongst the toothpicks.

I won't say why or how , but it just happened. I didn't plan it. My life did.. I noticed my head tends to dream a lot these days , because of my lack of socializing with the world. People who are close would know how I have been lifeless and at home. Hence, how i can finish the whole of "New Moon" in just 2days. Yes , I am that lifeless. But , there is a silver lining.. I got to read again , after quiet some time. And i truly truly loved the book , i recommend it to everyone. Especially the ones that have yet to see the movie ( like me ).

The book gave me the opportunity to fantasize. The romance where Bella just almost fall in love with Jacob, the werewolf, whose character just blew me away. Its a shame his not the leading man , and that his just the "best friend" that loved Bella. I wish i had someone who had that kind of affect on me. At least Bella knew someone really truly cared enough for her. Alright I know , you people must think im nuts thinking this fictional fantasies can come true. But no harm in dream ya ? I guess the loneliness Bella felt in the book is just a familiar feeling to me, from my past. She was so lonely this it hurt to her core. Sigh. Again, you MUST read the book.

Tomorrow's the 9th, "we" are going to Sabah for the week. Like my week in Langkawi wasn't enough, but I'm not complaining. I love it there. I'll have time to be loose and at ease.I'll blog more when i have time , I'm contemplating to start reading "Eclipse". It's know to be the best amongst the 3 sequels. *crossfingers* Hoping there's more of Jacob in it :)

CURRENT OBSESSION.

Jacob Black's character.

Hari Raya Aidiladha

THANK YOU NOREEEEENNNN I LOVE MY PRESSIE :)

Im actually bored to death ,and extremely tired. But i'll just talk with my photo's if ya'll dont mind :)Okay maybe i will hee.. So i woke up at 7AM !!! To wash my hair hee :P So i had nice hair today , wee. Waited for My bro to come home from prayers and went off to mama's friends house for bfast and then went to my grand's house to eat lunch eheh. Thennnnnnnnnnnnn , went ALL THE BLOODY way to Tampin to Raya with papa's friend house :) Got a bunch of pictures too.


Oh oh , enough about my boring and tiring raya.. I want to announce in here out LOUD.

I finished my foundationnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn !!!!"

Yay , i did well for my presentation that i was absolutely freaking out to to , and not in a good day ! GOSH. But i'm glad in time of need , MAMA ANAK MURID D NOREEN AD AND more.. were there for me with never ending support LOVE YA'LLLLLLLL too bits. :) xoxo

ok dah , im tired.